"As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord" ~ Joshua 24:15

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Catching up... again :)

So I am obviously not good at this blogging thing. I haven't written in a long time. In all fairness we just moved, again! We finally have internet. So its Thursday night and all the boys are asleep so I thought I would sign on. Even though I have a sink full of dinner dishes, I need to blog tonight.

So we moved to Fl in march right, it was going so great. Everything seemed to be falling into place. We were very happy here. Then July came. We had known that my husbands father was sick for a while, but one night we got the phone call. You know the one, the "you need to pack up and come home, its not going to be long" phone call. Thanks to a blessing from the Lord we were on (separate) planes headed back to PA. I'm sure you all know what happened when we got there, within a few days our dad went to be with the Lord. July 28th, 2010. This has been the hardest day for me and I cannot even imagine what my husband and his siblings are feeling. This was a man who has been there for me for the past 10 years. We had a good relationship. (i think?) Always cracking jokes, making fun, Dad was always teasing me for something. I have so many memories of this one person that influenced my life so much. I am so grateful that God put someone so amazing in my life for such a long time. I am having a very hard time letting go. I have never grieved this much in my life. I feel like I lost my very own father. He was a father, He was always there for me. When I wanted to talk, ask questions about the Lord, talk about the bible, I could always call him. He is such a good picture of what my heavenly father is like. Dad taught me so much. Most of you know that we shared the same birthday, every year we would call each other up, happy birthday!!! I loved celebrating with him and the family. It made my birthday so much more special. My birthdays will never be the same. No one to call to say happy birthday too, no more funny cards to pick out, no more picking up the phone to call when I have a question or can't understand my husband.... I'm left with these memories, I try to remember all the funny things that happened, all the laughs, all the big stuff. I wish I could bottle it and hold on to it forever. A friend told me to rejoice because God keeps his promises and Dad is in heaven, so i will see him again one day. Will it be the same? Will he know who I am? Now I am left with pictures and memories, I love talking to my children about their pappy who loved them so much. It breaks my heart knowing that Hezekiah will never know pappy and how awesome he was. You know typing this, I remember the first time hezekiah smiled was when dad was holding him earlier this year. His face lit up with Joy, getting his 12th grandchild to smile for the first time. Priceless. I still cry most everyday, I don't want to ever forget all the fun we had. Wow how blessed am I?

So we moved from sanford to a town called Debary. We love it here. Our pastor is renting us a house, it is a dream come true. Its so cool to look back and see how God works all things out. The boys are doing great. Jacob just turned 5 and he is writing his name and even starting to write letters to people! So fun! Noah is 2.5 and is a ball of energy! Loves his big brother and always wants to be around him. Hezekiah is 10 months old already! Wow! where does the time go? He is crawling like crazy, climbing, walking along stuff. He does more and more each day. I see him watch his brothers like "hey wait for me" so cute. Everything else is great. Keep our family in your prayers and we continue this journey! Thanks for reading and check back soon.

About Me

Well this is my blog as life as a singe mom of three boys used to be housewife but currently a nanny to 6! Mostly crazy but always wonderful, making mistakes but walking in faith every day.